#not only does Derek choose Stiles#when Stiles sits down and says ‘if this is a dream then why do you look so worried’#it’s Derek dreaming of Stiles being concerned#no matter what else they say or do Derek //actively// needed somebody to care about him#for just a split second he needed to forget the reality and to shut it down#and of all the safe spaces to choose and of all the people to talk to#he chose Stiles#he needed //Stiles// to care#he didn’t just dream of Stiles#(though holla at the whole married story like Jeff c’mon bite the bullet and do it ffs you seem like you want to)#but yeah not only does his head go to Stiles#it doesn’t even go to carefree winding him up Stiles#or demon Stiles making it worse#which would actually be MORE like Derek#another way to punish himself; sees possessed Stiles who tells him ‘well it’s your fault any way’#like in the moment of panic and sheer fear he allows himself to dream of something good#for once in his life Derek is kind to himself#and you know how in Abomination when he goes into the water saying ‘dammit Stiles’#and if he’d drowned it would have been supes ironic that his last words were DAMMIT STILES#here. being shot. thinking he’s about to die. his subconcious goes ‘ok dude you can have something caring’#’someone will give a fuck about you for a second and listen and help and let you process’#and he knows that Stiles will give him answers because Stiles has ALWAYS given him answers#i just think in the end it’s interesting that as he’s being shot by the ex that burned down his home and his family#and his nightmares are all coming true he chooses to dream about Stiles#~cough all your soulmate prince endgame bullshit means nothing when you’ve got this going on quietly writers (via stilinskisparkles)
#and that’s his entire character #don’t touch it #GONNA TOUCH IT #don’t go looking for that body in the woods #GONNA GO LOOK FOR THAT BODY IN THE WOODS #don’t antagonize the psychotic geriatric hunter who’s just kidnapped you from a sports field full of poeple #GONNA ANTAGONIZE THE PSYCHOTIC GERIATRIC HUNTER (rubykatewriting)
don’t antagonize the the trapped alpha GONNA ANTAGONIZE THE ALPHA run away! GONNA STAY RIGHT HERE don’t hang out with werewolves NEW BEST FRIENDS don’t get involved I’M INVOLVED call your dad stiles NOPE write an essay on economics DID YOU SAY CIRCUMCISION you’re not gay I COULD BE
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Till the melodies of childish days, are upon, upon me
And they take me back, back down the river
They keep leading me on, they lead me to the sea
And all of my manhood is cast
Down in the flood of remembrance, and I weep like a child for the past.
Find an anchor, something meaningful to you. Bind yourself to it.